just me.....~

i just need some respect........ not allot.... just a little.... if that as a friend u guys can't do than just please ignore me.. if going out with you guys in a big group end me up crying all the time, i don't see why will there be any more reason for me to take you guys as my friends.... more than that, i can be that stupid to take all of you as my family.... you can actually talk about sex, breasts, and everything in front of my friends..... why can't you think if your own girlfriend is teased the same way as you did....... will you smile and tell her to chill? they're just joking? although sometimes they go over the limit but they mean no harm? i can still stand it when you guys are just joking among us... but you all did the same although there are my other friends there? until the extend that you can include my mum? who the hell you think you are to talk about my mum?? it's still okay that you scold me with bad words right at my face.... showing me the middle finger in the public.... ignoring the fact that i am a girl....and will feel embarrased... but please..... i won't stand you saying that my mum did not teach me?~! i am not angry.... not at all.... I'm just speechless..... and disappointed... of myself...... that i am such a useless piece of crap that does not even deserve any respect.... please.... don't say sorry to me anymore.... it is not important if you don't mean it... it is just a word you say but will do it again right after the next second... so just keep it for other people who will actually be stupid enough like me to believe your sorrys after you repeat the same thing you do again and again.... and i bet you wouldn't even think of saying sorry because it will be wasting your time right? in the actual fact, i wouldn't want to post this post because i know if i did... i won't be the same although things get better after this, it will never be back as usual anymore... but i still have to.... although i am very thankful for all the things you guys did for me and i am really very happy that i am with you guys because i am always myself when i am with all of you.. but i rather be a person i am not if being a person who i am will end up like this.... if just wanting to hang out and be with all of you for every dinner, i must stand all this, than i rather not having any dinners anymore.... all the things i say above is not referring to what happen today... its to everything i got since last time.... maybe you're thiknig that i am being over sensitive and overeacting, because i think i am too... but i do feel so therefore i have to say so.... and i am sorry that i can't and do not want to be the topic of each and every of your jokes anymore....


oh, and to those other people... who are not included in my family but immitated their jokes... please ass off and keep quiet when you see me the next time... don't use me to joke around just because you want to try to blend in but do not have any sense of humour... they are more important to me and thus whatever they say i can still stand it.. but the fact that you're nothing to me, please **** off... and watch your mouth and whatever you say.......

anyway, sorry for being emo.. again....

-JaNe-

A dinNer of chickEn winGs....~~

its 3a.m in the morning now... i'm really very sleepy but i have no idea why i just can't sleep.... so! i decided to blog about my day......=P there are two main things happened in college today... i 've finished my chemistry paper today... and... i dropped my handphone from the second floor!!! but apparently, my hp is still in shape.... although there are many scratches all around... and also some parts of my hp broke off......=.= oh well.... as long as i can still use it right......^^ anyway, went for the FATTY CRAB restaurant for dinner.... i know is sounds weird that my post's title was about chicken wings and not crab.... but we really went there only for the chicken wings.. it's really yummmy....^^ we ordered 50 pieces of chicken wings for just the 8 of us....! i see chicken bones all over the table... its a real chikenny dinner..................... =P


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just for you guys to know.. my hp fall from this height at this position right after this picture is taken.......T.T


looks little?? we actually ate 5times this plate of chicken wings.....


they arranged the bones nicely to count the amount of wings they ate..... lol....


first, it was like this....


and ended up like this...... the mountain of chicken bones...... HAHA....


mean was so happy eating........ SOOOOO SLOWLY.....



while waiting for everyone to rest after massive intake of chicken wings, we played a game called "chi ku pak"..... whoever who lost must eat the last piece of chicken....


and yes..... i lost.... look at his face!!! he just enjoys torturing me... arghhhh..... =.=



and the following are.....


nic n me......~



me and mean.......~


keegan and mou....~


bill and boon mean.....~


hao yi and shou jing....~


haha... and sabrina.....forced her to take this picture...=P



bill, mean, sab and kevin.....~~^^


and this is the bill for our dinner..... 100 bucks just on the chicken wings!>.<


and as usual..... went to ftz for dota after dinner.......^^

after blogging, i just realised something... maybe the chickens are the reason why i can't get to sleep..... too full!=P or maybe the chickens are hunting us..... haha... OH! anyone who wants to go for shopping?? CALL ME.!!!^^


-JaNe-

just another day......

hrmm... let me start from yesterday.... i went to the inti's international cultural night... there were many performances.... some of them were really funny... there is one guy... who is supposed to sing a korean song sang by rain.. but he was soooo shy, that i can barely here his voice!! lol... oh well, but this time's event has much more performances than the last event i went in inti's college.... nothing much to say bout that night anyway... so i'll just upload some pictures of it....^^

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and as for today, i woke up early for school as usual... quite excited cause i was planning to go for futsal practice..... after school....!^^ but because of my DEAR friend eunice, who made us got there late there....=P and because we went to the WRONG sports planet.... i did not get to play!!!=( dissapointed........ oh well, just got to wait for next week...... hehe.....

........................... me and eunice.....~

the map lubo drew for us which directed us to the wrong sports planet.....=.=

me, nic and eunice.... camwhored while we are finding for teacher....=P


watching other people playing....=(

and we finnally left the place after teacher called us and say "see you next week" =.= .................

can't wait to play next week... hope nothing goes wrong....>.<


-JaNe-

fAmilY diNner....^^

hrmm... let me see how to start this post.... I'm really out of ideas to start all the posts... can someone give me a hint??=P anyway, today i went to ac with mich and carol after school.... we went there for almost 2 hours... and most of the time what we do is only stoning... but we did have fun stoning, right carol..?=P after that... boon mean called me.. saying that nic is cooking today! finally, i can try some home-cooked food...^^ we went there around 6 and we started eating only at 9!! but its worth it... the spaghetti was delicious... and i learnt alot about cooking today..=P and finally, i wanna say.... thanks to nic for your yummy dinner........ and sorry for alll the troubles i did..... hehe..

the following are pictures taken today....

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bill and mean... a.k.a daddy and mummy....^^


richard posing with the carrots...haha....

and this is me.... CAN U SEE WHAT IM DOING..?? ain't i good....=P



taddaa..!! the carrots me and mean sliced...!!!~~

me and mean....




me and keegan


and the following is all of them.... cooking....~

bill

nicole

boon mean


and richard.......

and finnally.......... we did it! the deliscious spaghetti...!!^^

after eating, we played donkey...(its a card game)
and i won... hah!

and we watched waterhorse... its quite boring actually... i fall asleep while wathcing it...~.~

oh. and thanks to all the slim guys.. nic's bed fall off... SORRRY NIC....>.<

really hope we can do this more often... its really fun... hehe...
p.s. i need to start studying, so i might not be posting new posts in the mean time....~

-JaNe-

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was sitting on the bench outside taylors college after walking back from my friends house yesterday... i sat there alone for 4hours... thought of many things.. i wonder.... how long does it take for my friends to realise that im lost if i got kidnapped over there... 10 hours? 1 day? or 1 week?......

-JaNe-

first tag!^^

1. Six People to Tag. The victims are
hrmm... no idea... lazy tag people.. hehe..

2. Six Things I'm Passionate About
stars.....^^
mashimaro!
toro
chemistry?
math?
and most definitely... PHYSICS....!=.=

3. Six Things I Say Too Often
shit!
go to hell la...
DUH....=.=
sori...?=P
eh!!!!!
eh, i very hungry la.....

4. Six Books I've Read Recently
none.... hehe..

5. Six Songs I can Listen to Again and Again
i love you - barney..=P
i still believe - mariah carey
somewhere over the rainbow - connie talbot..she's so cute...^^
"cai hong" - jay chou
belaian jiwa - inuendo
geh deh ji geum - lim jung hee

6. Six Things I Learnt in the Past Year
spm sucks!
i love kuantan...^^
never give up..?
tell the person that u love before its too late.
sleepovers will never work...
don't have to plan too much for college.. nothing will work out as u planned...right mich..=P

-JaNe-

hoMe swEet hoMe...

living in kuantan for the last few days was the most relaxing days i have in this year.... can't really remember the last time where i lay down on my bed for the whole day... sleeping there.. watching tv there... msn there.. and eat there... i guess the only thing i don't do on my bed is taking my bath..?=P okay, maybe because my life here is tooo relaxing.. its really BORED!! and i really miss my mum and dad... it's really different being in kuantan without them around...T.T but... hope u guys have fun in uk!^^ don't have to worry about us... i will take good care of zen..=P since i did not really step out of my room these days... i din't really get to take much pictures.. but! still manage to get some when we're sending our parents to the airport....^^

the pictures we took in the airport...

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my sis, stella... me... n my lil bro.. zen...^^

me n my family...^^



zen n me

baby and mummy....


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as we reach the airport.. my bro immeidately spotted something...

zen : mummy, i want to buy that lolipop, give me money......

mum : okok.... took out 10bucks and gave it to him...

zen : jie, bring me go buy something...

me : kk..... WAIT.. what you wanna buy??

zen : there, that lollipop!

me : nononono, don't waste money... that kind of lollipop not nice to eat wan...

zen : don't bother me la.. i want to buy...

me: i say cannot ah... don't waste money...

stella : yalar, you buy and see... mummy not here for 3 weeks, u nonid eat pizza for three weeks..

me : haha.. yes... and no kfc no mcD oso...

zen : yerrrr.... MUMMY.... you see they all.. they don't let me buy my lollipop!!

mum : both of you ah... don't bully your brother can or not...........

zen : =)

and yes.... he finally gets his LOLLIPOP...=.=


oh, is there anyone going back kl this weekend???? i need to get back there!!T.T



and finally i went out after 4 days stuck at home.. but it's not really exactly going out out.. because its only having dinner.. or maybe it should be called as supper.. hehe.. anyway, went to eat with my friends... and guess what.. on the way to get something to eat.. they told me that they heard news that im a lesbian???!!!! wth....=.= ok, i just want to clear this to everyone........

I AM NOT A LESBIAN!!!
hehe......=P



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seong how and xiang yong


us... after eating...


and this is richard.. trying to b a malay girl through web cam.. haha..dun kill me..=P




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i just wanted to post my lil baby's picture... i really really missed you so much...


maxi! i will never forget you........


-JaNe-