HappI BiRthDay BaBy!!!!!!^^

luv you always.....-jane-

HECTIC day...=P

firstly... i wanna wish two of my really really close friends, john and dave... HAPPY BELATED 18th BIRTHDAY!! may both of you have the best birthday this year and may all your wishes come true yah........^^

from left : dave, john, mishand and hijaz's hand........^^

anyway, im posting about my day on

25th july, 2008.....

that's a friday by the way... oh, i went for futsal!!=P and TO MEAN, i did touch the ball more than FIVE times k... hehe.. although i played only less than 15 minutes... but its really kinda fun..! and i'm gonna be there every week from now on.. hehe.. after futsal.. got really exausted.. played too much... lol.. slept in the car.. ate dinner in hassan's... and once i reach home.. i had to get ready for our college's charity concert already... ok, the performances there are not that bad.. quite good actually.. but some of the songs really get me an mich so damn stressed...!>.< so we decided to leave early... after the concert, i went to meet up with me "family" in ac... and we played foos...^^ and as usual, after foos, the guys will be heading to ftz and the girls will head back home.... while me, nic, and mean were walking home.. i suddenly suggested that we should go somewhere to grab something to eat.. and nic suggested ANW... had some girls talk and bonding there for about an hour.. and yes... after supper, finally i get to sleep.....~ hehe.....


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the futsal team i played with! WE won.. erh.. actually it's THEY won SIX games in a row..!=p

bill and mean~~

can you spot me??=P

this are the two uncles who got soooooo tired after playing 1 game... haha..

billl, mean and me...~

the nics....=X



me, nic and mich... in the WONDERFUL charity concert.... hehe...

rishi, shaun and 3 of us...~

oh, and of course, we both camwhored in the toilet as usual..=P nice pose mich........=x


and we got sooo bored there, al of us took some REAL cute pictures... hehe...


~zero~

~one~

~two~

the cutest ~three~ =P

~four~

~five!~

and ~six~


ARE WE CUTE??? are we? are WE???!!=p


me and mean......^^

the all time stressing game.... #foosball#

me and nic...~ muacks muacks...>.< us in ANW....^^



ps : i think im quite talented in futsal by the way.... hahaha..just joking...=P




-JaNe-

dear daddy and mummy...(re-updated..a lilttle..=P)

happy 5th month anniversary!^^

I've been hanging out with both of you since the last five months.. i kinda feel sorry to disturb you both all the time.. but you guys just make me feel so comfy and not as a "lamp post" when I'm the only one eating dinner with both of you.. being with you guys made me not miss my actual home sooo damn much... because i can also feel the warmth of a family from you guys..although my mummy is a little tooo young to have me as a daughter...=P thanks for everything... thanks for bringing me out all the time.. teman me.. never forget about me.. worry about me.. scold me when I'm doing something really dumb... comfort me.. teasing me... and BULLY ME... although sometimes i get really mad, but i know you guys mean no harm.. and I'm sorry that i kinda let my stupid emotions get into me for the pass few weeks.. but still.. no more stupid jokes arh..=.= hehe.. hrmm.. anyway, all the best in everything and stay happy forever k....?^^

a little collection of them....

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2nd month......(their favorite picture..=P)


3rd month....(pyramid's roof top..^^)


and their 4th month's anniversary....~


and the following are...




BILL AND BOON MEAN....~



and of course.. i have to post some pictures that has me in it...=P

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erh.. that sesat couple behind there.. they're sab and kevin...=p




me and boon mean......*.*

from left : nic, me, mean, richard and bill... in 1u..=P

and finally, our "family" picture....=p

p.s : as for your 5th month's picture.. i will upload as soon as i get them today aite..=P
love ya! MUACKS!!!^^

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and here is their 5th month aniversary pics..


you guys are one of a kind parents that anyone can have...! glad knowing both of you...^^
oh, and thanks for yesterday... had lotsa fun...!=)

-JaNe-

if its about me.. I'm really sorry... i did not thought of it... i thought that i have been with you most of the times when you need me.... but i seriously could not be with you just now... both of us are equally sad, but i need my time alone.... i just can't bare being with another person just now... i know you're by my side most of the time when I'm down... and i really thank you for that.. but there is also many times that when I'm alone too that you do not know.. i just hope that you will understand that i won't expect you to be with me all the time I'm sad... although i will try to do that for you, but I'm not perfect.. i can't be there at times.. of course i will disappoint you sometimes or maybe its every time to you... but i too get disappointed sometimes... I'll try not to repeat again.. and i hope that you can tell me that you need me when you do.. because i just seem to guess wrongly what you need from me all the time.. and I'll try my best to change.... anyway, i just wanna say, i do care about you... but you're always the stronger one.. so i just can't seem to see that when you need me.. and I'm also sorry for taking you for granted that i needed you more than you do all the time.. and definitely, you are not my backup plan.. you have no idea how important you are to me... you're one of my best friend... or maybe, you are my only best friend.. i really do not want us to change... i really like us having our pointless chats... you're the only friend that i can tell each and every of my feelings to... and you're the only friend that i dare to show my real expressions to.. and i hope you need me the same way i do.. and please... just tell me that you need me to be there when you do... because I'm really stupid to find that out myself... and i did ask why... every time i ask you, you will just say nothing.. why can't you just scold me right in front of my face? I'm so so sorry that you feel it that way.. but just because you complain and i did not doesn't meant that you did not do the same thing to me.. i feel the same all the time.. you just never realise what people do but only realise what you do... don't you see why you always think that people take you as a tool.. taking you as a driver, taking you as aperson to eat dinner with, taking you as a backup plan.. it's because you will never see what that person did but you'll only see what you did.. i hope that you just understand that no one can understand how you feel if you don't say it out..

anyway, i just wanna say.. I'm really really sorry for being such a useless friend to you and did not even notice it... im really sorry for not realising how you feel.. and im really sorry for how you actually see me... i'll really try my best to change....


-jane-

Girls in my Life

Where were you when i needed someone to talk to? You seemed to vanish into thin air. Am i a substitute for you? Or am i just some of your back up plans? You have your ups and down and so do i. So i would really aprreciate it that FOR ONCE you would not make it all about you. I have feelings too. I need to rant on somebody too. But how can i count on you? you never seem to give. Im fed up of giving...its not that im hoping for any reward...but all i need is just a company. Im really disappointed with myself. How can i be so stupid? Well i guess you would not even realise because im just invisible to you after all. Both of you...both of you are one of a kind. Leaving me when you have other friends around. Im really really upset today. But apparently i happen to be more upset about this. Don't you ever know how it feels when you are so upset over something and yet you still have to be alone? without anyone to give you a hug? or even a piece of advice? It sucks so badly. I even thought that i could talk to someone else. But it doesn't work. All of them don't seem to care. So why should i bother so much about it?

all by myself

arggghhhhh... i really hate myself being sooo emo these days... since i came back to kl after my sem break, i wasn't really happy.... not even once until now.. i have no idea whats gone into me.. i got so damn moody all the time.. i got angry out of a sudden... and etc... but after thinking for the whole night yesterday, i realised why... its always because of you... ALWAYS... since the day WHICH i do not know when i started liking you.. it's always you... you've caused all my imbalanced emotions... making me happy at a time and then i can just get soooo damn moody and angry the next second because of you...

Oh, to all of you who do not know who and what i am talking about, you can just skip this post because its really boring.. its specifically and only for this one person..

To My FRIEND....,

after you've read this, i hope you can really do as i wish to....

it has been like this for years already... i do not know why but ONE message from you, causes me to be very happy and the next ONE message can also make my tears fall... just ONE word from you and i can be really active and jolly and the next one word of yours can make my whole day moody... your ONE smile makes me think that I'm gonna be alright because i know i have you, and also just one glance from you telling me that you do not like me at that moment makes me feel like there is no point existing anymore... All the time, every minute, every second, waiting for your message everyday really kills me.. waiting for you to nudge me in msn makes it feels like it's forever... waiting for you to call me in the night seriously is torturing... all i can remember when i think back what I've been doing in the past few years is only waiting and waiting for you... i feel so stupid telling myself to give up all the time... but fail after the next day.. because when i am real close to succeeding in letting myself away, you will just appear.. all my hard work will be wasted... i know that i am being real pathetic for hanging on although i know that it will be impossible for us to be together.. and YOU said it yourself too... so please.. its time.. stop asking me to wait for something that will never happen... stop talking to me.. stop being concern about me.. stop being worried about me when i have problems.. stop telling me that you miss me at one moment and reminding me that we will be friends forever the next.... leave me alone.. i need to get my life... i need to find someone that can really be with me all the time when i need him... i do not want to be all by myself anymore... by the time you read this, i think it will have been few days that I've been ignoring you.. i don't even want us to be friends anymore, seeing you as my friend makes me feel like its the end of the world... i hope that i can really do it this time.. i have to stop being single for the rest of my life....... i really have to let you go.. let myself go... its gonna be hard so please.. there is nothing that you can help.. all you can do is leave me alone...
goodbye dear...

I'm so sorry that i keep posting these emo posts.. I PROMISE! this will be the last one alright....... no more... i hope and i know that i can really be myself and be happy after this......

-JaNe-

The First

Okey. This is obviously my very first post and you know the reason most people blog is to indirectly talk about you and they can get away with it. Well im doing the same here as well. Mind me. Now let me start with my oh-so-not-perfect life. College life was rather fun....during the beginning. Yup...it starts to sucks when all the assignments are starting to pile up. Procastination kills. It sucks even more when you meet the wrong people in college. Oh but i was fortunate enough to have a bunch of bitches as my classmates to goof around with me. Emkay, Ling, Keiron, Ness and Sham...they make college fun. They are the reason for me to wake up and go to college everyday. I would die without them in the class...without them in college. To make things simple, there is no one worth for me in college besides my bitches and of course not forgetting my two gurls...JANE AND CAROLINE!!! They make me feel so welcomed. They make me feel wanted...appreciated. Unlike SOME PEOPLE they just tend to take things for granted..making me to hate hanging out with them. Who the hell you think you are to treat me this way? okey...i shall not rant too much here. Im just gonna live my happy life just like the old days trying my best to cut out those UNWANTED or even better, UNECESSARY people out of my life. Since its my very first post after beeing bugged for God knows how long...i shall post some pictures to brighten up this post rite? =D

The Unseperables

Pretty maidens all in a row *excluding me of course*

Me camwhore/talking/yumcha/shopping/stoning partner.

Me lecturer on "How to spend money wisely"

I'm finally done with my first post and i'm pretty proud of muhself...=D



*Michelle*